Meeting

Baby girl,

Tomorrow is the big day. I've been preparing all the material Beyond Type One & Debbie have sent me & I have to say- I'm really happy & proud to be a part of this. I'm happy to be able to keep my promise to you.

I've had to take breaks reading all the material on DKA- because it's a big "trigger" for me. Reading about all the symptoms & talk about comas, brain damage & death....

My PTSD starts back up & I feel myself starting to get anxious...it's just not good baby. All those memories come back & I just can't take it. I'm afraid of anxiety attacks.

So I had to stop. After all, I lived it...how much better can I explain it to them than by sharing what we went through? :(

I've learned that PTSD is real & it's scary.... I don't know if it will always be there. But I've learned to step back when I need to.

I'm hoping tomorrow won't cause another bad episode. I'm going to remember everyone's good thoughts & wishes & remembering that you are there in spirit, cheering me on.

I love & miss you so much. My sweet girl.

I will pray to God for strength. I hope he will hear me.
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Then later tomorrow night Bella has her pyramid strings concert at the high school...just like you did. Daddy still has the pictures on his phone.

I will be seeing you everywhere tomorrow my angel. I can't wait.

I hope you can look after your sister too tomorrow- she's going to wear her butterfly dress in your honor.

We love you- and we never forget.

Always & forever,
Your mommy <3

Bad pictures- the print qualities are much better in person.

Good reminder for tomorrow.