October

My little girl,

October is here. The sun came out of nowhere this morning while I was walking Rocky and stayed out for the rest of the day. I was thankful for it...since we were done with the rain. It's finally starting to feel like fall.

Bella came home upset today after an incident in school. This is the third time she's come home sad, saying that recess time has been hard for her. She finds herself thinking of you & missing you...more and more. And it makes her really sad. :(

We talked, hugged & cried together. I explained that it's ok and normal for her to have these moments. That it's ok for her to talk about it and cry if she needs to. I tried to remind her of all the good things, the gift of love you gave us, the memories, how you are still here in spirit....how we'll one day see you again.

All those things I tell myself to make myself feel better...

I think it worked. At least for now.

I told her there are going to be many more sad moments in the future. How we have to learn how to handle those moments, but most importantly to know we are not alone. We have each other, and she has her councilor at school, and the doctor if need be...

Whatever it takes. One day at a time.

:(

It's so hard babygirl. It's one thing for me to carry the burden & the pain, but another to watch your sisters hurting too. It adds to the grief, to the feeling of being so utterly helpless.

I tried to remind her of the paper she wrote that everyone loved. That got over 800 views on your page and even shared on a Type 1 Awarenes site (so proud of her)...to remember the words she wrote.

I hope, I wish, I pray for your sisters my angel. Please watch over them if you can. Sissy hurt her foot in PE today and she's limping. :(

It's one thing after another. Another month. Time passes. Nothing we can do but just try and live the best way we can.

We love and miss you terribly.

My sweet girl.

This video came up on my facebook memories and I had to re-record it using my phone, not the best quality but better than nothing. We can still hear your sweet voice, see your beautiful face and watch your silly ballerina sister in the background. :)

Forever & ever,
Your mommy <3

https://youtu.be/-rRNz7-eUeo