Perhaps

My baby girl,

There's been so much going on. I'm off today preparing for a procedure I'm having tomorrow. It's not fun but I have to get it done. I've been having stomach issues for so long now, it's about time I get it checked out. I don't think it's anything major, just one of those things that happen with age.

Sissy hurt her foot in gym & was in urgent care Sunday & saw a specialist yesterday. She pulled a ligament on the bottom of her foot & possible stress fracture. The doctor said the x-rays look ok, but sometimes a stress fracture doesn't appear until a couple weeks later. Just to be safe, she has to wear a boot for 2 weeks.

Daddy got a new job! He starts this Friday. It's an exciting opportunity for him. Better location, better environment, better everything. I guess he was still a little hesitant even after his interview, only because Daddy is loyal & he's been at this job for so long....

But he said he went to see you at the gardens afterwards & he heard your voice saying, "Go for it Daddy!" He said after that, he knew he should take it. <3

I know you are always here with us, still a part of our lives. I know you will always be there to guide us in some way. I'm so thankful for that my beautiful girl.

.......

I sit here typing with tears in my eyes, because at the same time, I miss you.

It was Abuelita's 89th birthday Saturday. Tyler's birthday today, we celebrated yesterday. Alina's baby shower in a couple of weeks....

Time passes, seasons change, the holidays are coming up....

Things could be worse. I know we are blessed in many ways.

But that aching in my heart. That empty space...will forever remain.

And as time passes, I miss you more. :(

I will try to be strong my angel.

.......


I saw this movie Testament of Youth recently, I loved it so much I want to read the book.

Here are some quotes & poems from the book & movie.

I love & miss you every day. My sweet girl.

Forever,

Your Mommy <3


“Perhaps ...
To R.A.L.

Perhaps some day the sun will shine again,
And I shall see that still the skies are blue,
And feel one more I do not live in vain,
Although bereft of you.

Perhaps the golden meadows at my feet,
Will make the sunny hours of spring seem gay,
And I shall find the white May-blossoms sweet,
Though You have passed away.

Perhaps the summer woods will shimmer bright,
And crimson roses once again be fair,
And autumn harvest fields a rich delight,
Although You are not there.

But though kind Time may many joys renew,
There is one greatest joy I shall not know
Again, because my heart for loss of YouWas broken, long ago.”
― Vera Brittain, Testament of Youth    


“I found it not inappropriate that the years of frustration and grief and loss, of work and conflict and painful resurrection, should have led me through their dark and devious ways to this new beginning.”  

From the movie:

"They'll want to forget you. They'll want me to forget. But I can't. I won't. This is my promise to you now. All of you."