New baby

My angel,

Alina had her baby yesterday. I saw her today after work. She's so cute. She still has no name because Alina & Mike can't agree on a name. Right now it's between Mia & Sofia. I like both too, but she looks more like a Sofia. :)

It's exciting to have a new baby in the family. Life is a miracle...

I got emotional thinking of how happy we were to find out it was a girl. How Tyler read my mind when he said, "Yes! Hailey let it be a girl! I smiled picturing you up there with your angel wings & a magic wand saying, "Girls rule!"

Seeing the baby reminded me of when you girls were born. Of course you three were much bigger. Sissy was born 10 lbs 2 oz, you 9lbs 11 oz & Bella 9lbs 4 oz. At least you all got smaller each time. :)

.....

My heart aches with so many thoughts, baby girl. Like when we were talking about how great of a big sister Madeline will be....I was remembering & telling Mike & Alina how you would love babies so much you wouldn't mind changing thier diapers, even thier poopy ones.

How you would change Valeria's even as a toddler...& then my mind reminded me that you will never have your own. And the tears stream down my face. :(

Then I wonder if that's why God surrounded you with so many babies. Because maybe he knew...

Oh it's too much baby girl. I didn't want to cry but here I am.

I just wanted you to know about the baby. I know you are surrounded by them in heaven too.

I love you so much.

I miss you like crazy.

Always & forever,
Your mommy <3