Tonight is the first rain free night we've had in a few weeks, it feels like. Seems like it's been storming or showering every night. Your flowers I planted in the front love it though. I spent some time today working on the front yard, pulling weeds & trimming the edges. Our nice neighbor, Megan's grandfather, is still cutting the grass for us. I planted different types of flowers a while back, all in different shades of purple. They are growing nicely.
The one Grandma got you has grown so tall, it's almost as tall as the beautiful angel statue she got you to go with it. I'll have to remember to take a picture of it. That same hummingbird moth came by and was feasting on all the pollen from the flowers, flying from flower to flower. I found this pic, similar to it on the internet. I remember the first time we saw it with your sisters, we were a little freaked out because we'd never seen anything like it before. It was about 3 inches long, very pretty, creepy & unique all at the same time. Definitely not scared of people. Another sign of you??
I've been just trying to keep busy while Daddy's at work & your sisters are away. I miss them too, but I know they're having fun. They've been keeping me informed daily.
I've gone out to lunch & shopping with Cecilia, dinner a movie with Daddy & then again with Auntie last night. We talked & laughed, just the two of us. There's nothing better than having people in your life who know you, & love you the way you are. Who you can open your heart out to & know you won't be judged. Who will just listen. Those are the people worth having & keeping in your life.
I know I would try & teach you that too mouse. You had some really great friends, who loved you so much, and still do. It was always easy for you to make friends. I used to call you the social butterfly, because it never failed, anywhere we would go, you would make a friend. You were so happy & funny, a magnet of people, children & babies.
Some of your friends found me on Instagram and I've read some comments & seen pictures they post of you. They love & miss you too. It's so sweet, it warms my heart to know they still think of you. In the next couple of weeks, I'm going to have Isabelle & her family over baby. She was one of your best friends. Her mom has reached out and wants to come over. I've printed out all the pics I could find of the both of you, to give to her in a little album.
I want to let all your friends know that our door & hearts are always open & they are always welcome. I know that's what you would of wanted. But it's what I want to. After all, they were a part of you. They knew you too. They love you. They miss you. They grieve for you also...
I know you have made some new friends in heaven. Specially the little girl that passed away today due to complications of Type 1. It broke my heart to read it. :(
https://www.facebook.com/kissesforkycie?fref=photo
It's been heavy on my heart today mouse. It's heartbreaking to know another precious life was taken. Another precious little girl. Another angel....Kycie.
I went on her site & gave our condolences, and also shared our story. I got some really nice responses back from a lot of the moms. I had created a page for you a while back & shared it too on her site & other awareness sites.
https://www.facebook.com/letterstohailey
Again, many heart warming responses. Many of them visited your page too, and "liked" it. I wasn't ready to talk about it much before. But today, after reading her story, I was inspired, between the tears, to share your story too. Our story needs to be heard too baby. We could make a difference, one day, one person, at a time.
I know you made a new friend up there, my little social butterfly. I know you will take care of her & show her the ropes...
I think the same things, it's not fair. Why? Why you? Why her? We will never know the answers....
What we can do, is try and make sure it doesn't happen again. In your honor, in hers ...and all those before who lost their lives, and who still suffer with this disease (your cousins)..
I love you baby. I know you are not suffering anymore. Neither is that little girl...it gives me a little peace. While our journey wasn't the same, the outcome was, and it makes it just as painful.
I love you baby girl.
With all my heart.
Every day I miss you.
Every.single.day.
Forever your Mommy <3
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