Mikey

My dear sweet baby girl,

I miss you.

The weeks are passing by & we are getting by, the best we can. Trying to stay positive, but some days it seems like life is set on testing us, again & again. I don't want to worry you with those things right now though baby. I just want you to know how much you are missed. How much you are loved.

July is here. The first was Tio Gustavo's birthday. He's in Italy visiting Kita. Yesterday was Uncle Mikey's birthday. Tomorrow is July 4th, also Pop Pop's bday. Summer is the season for family & celebrations; the very things you loved.

It's too bad we couldn't celebrate with them personally this year, because they live so far. I remember in the years passed, going to visit them in Jersey & Tennessee. You girls didn't mind the long road trips because you'd get to see your favorite people in the world. We'd have a blast, then you'd cry so much when it was time to say good-bye. One year you cried so hard, you stayed glued to your Uncle Mikey for so long. You & Bella, but you were the one that started & got your sister going. We kept reminding you of the great time we had. To be happy thinking of the memories we made & time spent together, instead of being sad it was time to go....

....to think that I tell myself that same thing when I think of you, every time I cry. Life is so very ironic honey.

It was during one these trips to see Uncle Mikey, Zuli & Joshua, that you said the words quoted on the top of your blog :

"It's not goodbye, it's see you later."

 It's something that we taught you, that you learned to be true. We always kept a close relationship with them, even after he moved. You loved your uncle so much. Just like you loved Auntie. Nothing was ever going to change that. Not all the miles between us...not anything in this world. That is true for you also my sweet angel. We will always be close. We may be separated for now, but it's not a goodbye. It's a see you later. We will always, always love you.

Distance between people we love & care about does make it harder to keep in touch, but not impossible.

This was your uncle holding  & meeting you after you were just born. We lived in New York at the time, and he was in VA. But that did not stop him & the family from driving up to see you.

Distance makes the heart grow fonder. I miss him too. He looks so young in this picture. It's hard to believe he's 27 now, when I remember him just born too, just as tiny as you were in this pic. Now, he's a grown man with a family! I'm so proud to call him my brother.

 

You got to see him too, during your last days baby. I'm glad he was there by our side in Bolivia. To think back on it now, it was like God knew I'd need him there to get through. We're never going to forget. We will grieve for you forever...

 

It was good to finally talk to him after missing him yesterday. I heard Joshua in the background being silly & cute. He loved you so much too honey. Zulen said he would walk around the house saying your name, & that he attaches himself to girls that either look like you or are around the same age. I know he will remember you always....even as he grows older, we will remind him of you. The baby whisperer...

 

This was during our last visit to Tennessee.

 

 

So precious.
I look at these and it makes my heart happy.
I love those 3 faces so much.
You were always so loving, so sweet with all the kids.
A true ray of sunshine.

I look at that smile and it fills me up with so much love baby that it spills over in tears.
My sweet girl.
There will never be a day I don't think about you.
I will never stop missing you.
We all love you so much.

Sweet dreams my beautiful angel.

Kisses to the moon and back,
Forever your mommy.