Yesterday was 11 months. Sorry I didn't get to write or go see you at the gardens. But today we dropped off your cute little purple Easter bunny & chocolate bunny, with the girls; Natalia & Daniella . When I saw it at the store, I immediately pictured you holding it & caressing it, begging for me to buy it for you....so I did.
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| Always thinking of you. |
We had a busy week with work, St. Patty's Day, Natalia's & Papi's b-day. It was nice being around family & celebrating. Eating good food & cake....it was nice after a tough few days. Of course we missed you. We missed Mikey & the fam too. As much as we enjoy these special moments, we feel the absence of those we love & miss.
It turned cold again & we got some rain showers with some snow, but Papi being the party expert that he is, made the best of it. He cooked a ton of food (for his own birthday). But that's what's so great about him...not only does he not mind, he enjoys it. He loves having the family over, eating & drinking & having a good time. I think that's why he chose to be a Chef. The reward of all their hard work, is being able to watch others enjoy their creations. :)
My little girl....I miss you so much. We all do. We bought Natalia an art set for her b-day with paints, brushes, easel & canvases. This is what her, Bella, Daniella & Madeline drew for you:
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| We let it dry & placed it in your room. |
They did that all their own, without being asked. It was really sweet. I love that they still remember, that they still think of you. I see so much of you in the girls. Natalia is a sweetheart, loves art & gymnastics like you. Daniella loves to read, gets good grades & doesn't like to clean or cook at all, like you. ;) She still plays with babies too. Madeline loves the dresses & purses & the shoes, like you. Always looking girlie, fashionable & pretty. And Bella, well you know your sister. After all, you share the same souls with her & Sissy. And always will. <3
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11 months my mouse. I can write about how much this pierces me, but I won't. Instead I will write about how tomorrow Debbie, along with a couple of other T1D moms, will be meeting with some very important officials, to advocate for funding towards awareness & education of Type One Diabetes & Reegan's Rule. She will be including our story along with all the others, to hopefully make a case for the importance of this cause.
She asked last week if it would be ok to include you....of course I said yes & thanked her. I can't thank her enough. See my mouse, you are already starting to make a difference....
This is not how I would of wanted it, my beautiful girl. None of these other families either. It hurts & it makes me angrier at this disease. But its a reminder of why we have to continue to fight. It hurts, but we are trying to see the light & still fight...
I don't know if it will ever be like this, like this pic says:
And maybe I don't ever want it to be. Maybe I'm ok with just floating. Keeping above water. For now, that is all I can ask for....
I love you with all my heart. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you...
Forever,
Your Mommy <3
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