My dear Hailey,
You're birthday is in a few days. Today at work, I booked many appointments for May 5th & each time I had to read it back to confirm, I felt the ache in my heart grow deeper & the tightening in my chest grow stronger.
I wanted to have a celebration of life party for your 12th birthday, but all the rain we've gotten this past week dampened our plans & my spirit.
We went to IHOP yesterday for breakfast; to keep up with our tradition to go on birthdays, Mother's & Father's Day....going the Sunday before if the bday lands on a weekday. It was a rainy gloomy morning & we didn't want to leave the house but we didn't want to miss the start of your birthday week.
My sweet girl, I can't help missing you & wishing you were here. Demanding me to buy you a new iPhone or a birthday party at the bowling alley with your friends & a separate one with the family...
I know your birthday in Heaven will be grand. I just wish we were together to celebrate it with you. I know we will one day.
But some days it seems like it's too long to wait & I don't know if I can. The pain is sometimes too great.
I just miss you my mouse.
With all my heart & all my love,
Your mommy
She will be there with us celebrating. We will make it beautiful, just like her. I know she will be smiling big to see the family together and all the kids. You are such an amazing mother, friend, sister--person babe. I know that you will make her celebration very special and she will be giggling up in heaven. She can hear you and feel your heart communicate to her each time. I know deep in your heart you can feel her and she sends loved ones to remind you that she is never far. We will make sure to sing the loudest and remind the kids to come up with the silliest chant just for her.
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