My sweet angel,

It's just about one hour left before midnight...just before your 12th birthday.

I sit here with so many thoughts. My first is to tell you that we went to the gardens today to place some new flowers & birthday balloons. A day early because Daddy has to work all day tomorrow. The rain stopped just long enough for us to stand there for a while talking & crying. We have come to accept that no matter happy or sad; there will always be tears, my mouse.

I would say that I hope you like your flowers & balloons, except that this past Sunday, we were told you do...

Sissy talked to Grandma and she told her Aunt Loni was over again & told her she talked to a lady from her spiritual group. That the lady knew nothing of you before-hand & she mentioned a little girl named Hailey with long brown hair. She said to tell us that you know how we always leave flowers for you & that you love them....and that you can hear us talk to you. She also mentioned something about tweeting or a bird- that part was unclear. Grandma thought it might have something to do with this blog, Facebook or Twitter....I don't know my mouse.

All I thought about, while standing over top of your grave, was that I pray to God it's true. I pray that there is a God & that you are both watching over us. That you can see all that we do for you & for each other & how we are trying so hard to go on. To make you proud & make something out of this thing called life.

I hope that you heard us wish you a Happy Birthday & tell you how much we love & miss you. And that we will try & not cry tomorrow. That we will remember the beautiful life you lived. That even though we only had almost 11 years with you, we will cherish every moment. That even though we feel all this pain now, it still doesn't compare to the happiness that you brought into our lives. That we are the lucky ones, who were chosen as your family.

Your Mommy, Daddy, Sissy & Bella...

Your family that loves you forever. <3