Friday night

My Mouse,

It's Friday night. One of many that I chose to spend with your sisters. Our regular take out/eat out & movie night...remember? Tonight it's If I Stay (sissy's favorite). We've rejoined Netflix because we've watched almost every other movie at Redbox and On Demand...

I've always loved our Friday nights. We'd call it our pig out nights too- the one night I'd let you girls eat junk food; cookies, chips.....lately your sisters have learned to bake cookies from scratch. Bella said she wants to have her own bakery when she grows up. :)

So many times, I chose our movie night instead of going out with my friends. But honestly tonight I could of probably used a night out. Things have been hard & stressing. To add to it, yesterday Daddy found the screen window from the downstairs window on our backyard, broken & bent, with the screen slashed down right the middle. We called the police & reported it. An officer came to look at it & said while it could of been vandalism, it was more likely an attempted burglary! :( Really scary, mouse. So I couldn't leave your sisters, specially tonight.

We're going to get an alarm installed. In the meantime Sissy & Bella will be sleeping with me upstairs & Daddy in the basement. We turned all the outside lights on last night too...

What makes it worse is that Sissy said she heard a noise outside a couple of days ago, after school. It was just her & Rocky, they were both taking naps. Daddy & I were at work & Bella still at school. She said it was loud enough for her to be scared & not look, and lazy Rocky heard it too but like usual, just lifted his head...

I told her what to do if that ever happens again. But hopefully it doesn't. Hopefully it was a one time incident. This neighborhood has been normally safe. But just in case, Daddy drove Sissy to her bus stop this morning & I picked Bella up from hers. I bought them mace a few months back when we first got Rocky because sometimes they'd walk him at night...I showed them how to use it & told them to carry it with them during those times. Now I feel like they should have it with them all the time...

I'm just worried baby girl. Like I told Daddy last night we lost one of our babies....I couldn't bare anything happening to your sisters too. :'(

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In better news, your sister got picked to be a safety patrol. She's so happy.

love that big smile

I went to sissy's back to school night and met her teachers yesterday. I'm glad I went. I want to be more active in her life. I don't want to lose track of what's happening with her just because she's older...she still needs me too.

There's other news for Bella too, but it will have to be for another letter baby girl. It's something that I had/have mixed feelings and too much for tonight....

Yesterday Bella charged the old ipad & I found old videos of you & your cousins at Grandma's...Easter Egg hunting...

I got to see & hear you again. Your crazy funny laugh. Your sassy expressions...my beautiful baby girl. My mouse. My Hailey Anne.

I love & miss you so much. There are just no words....

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I can picture you here with us, watching this movie we saw at the theatre with you & your sisters. Remembering how we all cried because it was so sad. It's even sadder now...

I can feel you here with us, wrapped up in our love, in the warmth of our little home. And there is no place I rather be.

Forever,
Your mommy <3

memory- my sweet girls and their sweet smiles <3