Just in case

My little girl,

Another evening at home, your sisters doing their homework, Rocky chewing on his toy, Daddy at work...hopefully he'll be home soon.

Even with having the day "off", time doesn't allow to get all the things done that need to be done. I've learned not to sweat the small stuff as they say. There will always be laundry waiting to be done, grass waiting to be cut, dishes waiting to be washed or put away, dog hair to be vacuumed..etc, etc.

One thing that I've learned in all this- when you have your life suddenly flipped over & upside down, devastated, shattered, nearly destroyed...you learn what's really important & what isn't. You see things for what they really are. Raw & exposed.

I think deep down I've always known, my mouse. But it's much more magnified now.

What's more important? Family. Friends.

Having dinner with Papi & the family today cheered me up. Seeing Christina & Ceclia last week for Christina's bday & seeing Brian tomorrow for Dana's bday...

To have things to look forward to.

It's so important, specially now. With everything else going on...it's too much to even mention, angel. I don't know if you can see the state of the world right now. It's so scary. I wonder if it brings as much sadness up there as it does here...

I don't know if praying about it does any good anymore....

I always think, if God could do something about it, he would. Why else would he allow it to happen in the first place?

There's a part of me that will always question these things. But that's maybe for another time...

I know where you are, you are safe & hopefully at peace. Hopefully have all the answers to the questions we ask ourselves everyday...

That is something I will continue to pray for. As well as the safety, health & happiness for all our loved ones. Just in case, there is someone listening..

I love & miss you.

Every single day.

My beautiful angel. Goodnight.

Forever,
Your mommy <3

I'm always looking for someone or something to tell me that
everything will be ok. That no matter how impossible it seems
sometimes, we will survive the unimaginable.