My dear Hailey,

This has been a long week. Just a quick note to tell you I love you. I'm using my phone instead of the home computer to write this & it's just harder to navigate...attaching pictures and things.

It seems like short holiday weeks always seem longer. We did manage to get away for a day to go to Busch Gardens; first time for Daddy & your sisters. It was fun & we picked a good day that wasn't too crowded. I guess most everyone was at the beach. But it's ok, we still got wet with some of the water rides & some rain.

Daddy rode on every roller coaster in the park & Bella made him go on the cups & another ride that goes round & round. He was looking pretty out of it by the end of the day. :) He lasted longer than Sissy & me, we felt sick just after a few rides.

I can't explain it other than maybe the heat & it was Sissy's time of the month & for me I'm just getting old. When I was her age I could go on endless roller coaster rides & feel fine.

But we braved it out & still had fun baby girl. Of course we missed you. Bella specially. I went on the smaller rides with her- the ones you would of rode with her because you were scared of the bigger ones...the ones that went too high up or went too fast.

Of course we saw our Haileyfly. <3

I told Bella you were trying to tell her you were there with her & that you probably aren't even scared  of heights anymore because you have wings...
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Things aren't the same without you Hailey. They never will be. Everything...just life itself is just so different now & we are still adjusting to this new normal. Yes, it's still new baby girl. This is only the second time we went to an amusement park without you & the first time it was with Papi & the kids. We saw a Haileyfly that day too & Somewhere over the Rainbow played over the loud speaker as we were talking about you. <3 Me, Papi & Ayde looked at each other in disbelief...

So many times you have tried to remind us, to let us know you are always near.

It brings us so much peace.
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Oh babygirl. Today I found out an old coworker/friend of mine's brother passed away from Type 2 diabetes. He was only diagnosed a few years ago & he was still young but his health quickly declined. :(

I never met him but my friend would always tell me stories about him & I felt like I knew him. He was a character; funny & fun loving. They were really close. My heart breaks for her...embarking on this new journey of grief.

It's just not fair babygirl. I know it's part of life but it should be only after living a long fruitful life. Not sooner for some than others...

It makes me worry about Papi & his diabetes... :(
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It's a reminder to try to enjoy every moment with our loved ones, but then we are reminded every morning we wake up.

We miss you so much. My beautiful daughter.

I missed the fireworks this year because I just couldn't do it. There will be some days I just can't & I've read & been told that that's ok.

Daddy took your sisters & even though they wanted me to go, they understood. That's all I ask.
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Well my angel, I have to work early tomorrow so I will stop now.

Today we saw a little bit of a rainbow after a storm that quickly passed through & we smiled & waved hi.

Always & forever you are always on our mind.
Love  Mommy