Disasters

My beautiful girl,

I talked to Auntie & she told me about her tough day & despite how trying it was, she felt as though you showed her signs letting her know you were around. After listening to everything, I think they were signs too.

I remember what the medium said, that anytime "something happens & you have a feeling or you find yourself wondering...that it's never a coincidence. Almost always, it's your angel sending you a sign."

Also, I know if you could, you would always look out for her & the boys if they needed you. You loved each other like brothers & sisters. Auntie says Dylan still always talks about you- that he wants to go to "Rainbow Beach"- that there is such a place & he knows you'd be there. <3

Please ask God if you can, to watch over him my mouse. He's going through some things now & we are worried about him. I have faith that everything will be ok, but it doesn't hurt to pray & ask.
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There have been many reasons to pray about lately. In the last few weeks there's been several hurricanes, earthquakes, flooding...so much tragedy. It's hard to take it all in baby girl. I can't...

Yesterday I read about them finding the bodies of school children under rubble after a terrible earthquake in Mexico...I couldn't read much without my anxiety kicking in. I had to stop reading, stop watching....it's so heartbreaking. Then of course the age old question comes to mind- why, why, why??

Why?
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Maybe one day we'll have all the answers. I wonder if you are watching all these disasters & wonder what you are thinking.. :(

There are so many that have lost everything & here I type on a laptop, comfy on my couch under a roof, with air conditioning & electricity, with a full belly. My conscious can't rest easy. I have donated many times before during hurricane Sandy & Katrina...I'll have to find a way to help again. I feel that these are the times when God is watching closely. If not God, then life, Karma. The universe...somebody is always watching.

Maybe we can make a care package & send it to someone in need- on behalf of Hailey's Angels. <3

I know that's what you would of wanted.
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My sweet girl. I pray these disasters stop- yet I don't believe God has any command over Mother Nature.

We live in scary times, yet I'm not scared for myself. Your sisters yes, not for me. I have lived through my own worst disaster- still am. Still trying to recover...

Yes, it can always be worse. But for now, I won't think about that. I'll think about what we can do to make it better. That helps. Prayers too, they help. They may not solve problems, but they give hope.

And hope is the one thing we need more than anything right now.

I love & miss you so much.

Everyday you are on my mind. Everyday in my heart.

Forever & ever,

Your mommy

Maybe not today, but someday. Not a Debbie Downer-just
a reminder to love with everything you got.