Tomorrow

Baby girl,

Tomorrow is Halloween. Our 3rd without you.

I wish I could say that it gets easier as time goes on, but it doesn't. I wish I could be happy with just the memories, but it's the memories that cause me just as much pain as joy.

I wish....I just wish you were here baby girl.
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Who knows if you would still be dressing up tomorrow, or hang out with your friends, or stay home to pass out candy. Probably accompany Bella to go trick or treating? Still a kid at heart like her?

What would your costume look like? Something cute & girlie, princessy like usual?
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My beautiful princess. Wearing your costume for a small little
fall festival at the apartments we used to live at. You were nervous at
first, but soon got the hang of it. Always with that sweet beautiful smile.

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I will try & not be sad all day, my angel.

I don't know if I'll go out with your sister or just drop her off at Papi's,

Yesterday Auntie & Dylan came over they worked on your kindness rocks with your sisters. Maybe we'll hide them while trick or treating....

Little things like this help me so much. They help me channel this grief into something positive. They had a lot of fun decorating them too & did a great job on them.

Dylan wrote your name on a lot of them. :)

I'm thankful to have their support baby girl. I know they miss & love you just as much & we will never forget you.

Never ever baby girl.

I will pray for strength tonight, for tomorrow. Looking at these rocks....they are a reminder to me. Like the one that says it's ok to scream sometimes. Maybe I'll do that. I will try & remember their messages of love & hope too.

The rainbows, the Haileyflies & mermaids...all those things that make us smile & remind us of you. <3

We miss & love you baby girl.

Nothing is the same without you.

Please come visit me in my dreams, if you can.

Love,
Mommy