Snowday/Wrinkle in Time

My sweet girl,

Your sisters finally got their wish- our first significant snowfall in all of winter, at the official start of Spring. A real snow day.

It was a snow day for all us (even though I still had to work, but luckily didn't have to leave the house), including Daddy who had the day off anyway. He was up early, went to a meeting & apparently went to see you too.

<3

I saw his post on FB while I was working & immediately tears started to run down my face...we all miss you everyday my mouse, but some days are harder than others. He's right too- I know you would of loved today, a snow day, just like your sisters...
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When he got back, to our surprise, he announced this morning that he would take Bella & the kids at Papi's to go sledding. That he did & they were gone for a long time too. I imagined you with them, running up & sledding down the hills, screaming with fun & laughter...

Sissy & I stayed back to start on dinner & walk Rocky who was loving the snow. He definitely is a snow dog. Maybe he used to be a huskie in his former life. ;)
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Later we went to see Wrinkle In Time. Bella read the book so she was so excited, even more when it was over because she said it was almost as good as the book. :)

This is my favorite line from the movie:

"The wound is the place where the light enters you." - Rumi

There's so much truth in those words, my angel.

The only way I could explain it is using today as an example.

Feeling that wound; that hurt & emptiness of losing & missing you. The old wounds of past; feeling dread on Daddy's days off because of his disease...how it would thrive on his weakness.

With hope, faith & love & hard hard work....light begins to enter from those wounds. It's not that the wound goes away, because they will always be there, it's that we can appreciate better days like today, because of those wounds.

A simple snow day
The silence & stillness of the day
No hustle & bustle
The togetherness
Daddy going to an AA meeting
Visiting you
Wiping the snow off your beautiful plaque
A gesture of love
Sledding and snow angels
Red cheeks
The warmth of our home
The smell of dinner baking in the oven
Cozy kitchen
Snuggles with Rocky
Movie night
The togetherness
No outside world
Missing you
Feeling you sit right next to me
Always, right next to me

I love you my angel.

Forever & ever,
Mommy <3