My sweet girl,

I wish I were at the beach again watching the sunrise. The pic above was from the trip we took right before your anniversary, I don’t think I got a chance to write you about it, except for that sad letter the night before. But it was a nice trip, a nice break-~ a chance to get away. I wish we had more days like this.

Time just keeps ticking. Things are moving along...it’s your sisters last week of school. We’re supposed to close on the townhouse next week, Bella’s dance recital after that...we’ve already had 2 bdays; Joshua & Gabby, Auntie’s coming up...

In the midst of that I’ve been trying to go through some things, already I’ve found some lost treasures. <3 Letters, cards, drawings, pictures, projects, writings belonging to you & your sisters. Things that are worth more to me than gold. I’m so glad I was one of those silly sentimental moms that kept everything...I mean everything!

I’m so glad babygirl, because I really did find priceless gems. I’m going to take a picture of a few so I can share here.
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Making all these finds has made my heart happy & sad at the same time. Has made me walk down memory lane, made me nostalgic, grateful, remorseful, all at the same time.

Definitely, closer to you. <3
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It’s made me realize how the years go by. How fast it seems yet how many stories, how many memories have filled those days.

Mostly good. The best parts, have had you girls in it.
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I’m learning to keep stepping back when I need to breathe my angel. I know this move will test me, will bring the waves...it will one of the hardest things I’ll have to do, so I keep telling myself to step back & breathe...ask for help when I need it.

Even with all my anxiety & doubts, I feel like you are here by my side. Every time I open a letter or a card, a drawing from you...& I see the words “I love you mommy”, it fills my heart.

I love you back Hailey.

Forever & ever,
Your mommy <3