JDRF

Dear Mouse,     

                                                                                                                                                                        This is the picture we took after our first mile, the halfway mark of JFRF walk yesterday. You can see the monument, "the pencil" behind us. It was pretty hot but we made it. Look at how big our group was. Even a couple of friends that I knew since 4th grade, since I was your age...came to show their support. :)
                                                              
                                                                    http://jdrf.org/

Our superhero's team

I've been learning so much of Type 1 diabetes. Sometimes it's torture for me. Sissy & Bella don't like it when they catch me on the laptop reading. They know it makes me sad. I think things like "if I only knew before..."why didn't I know before?" I wonder what if....why not, and just why?

I know it's not healthy to do. But I'm your mom. I have to know what happened to you. I need to know. So I just read on, thinking there won't be a next time. That in the future if one of your sisters gets sick, I'll know right away. That there won't be a repeat...

It's a scary illness baby. Sometimes I wonder after reading some of the stories, of how hard your life would of been had things turned out differently. You were always so fragile. You'd cry about the smallest boo-boo. You'd run to me crying, showing me your leg or hand with the smallest scratch or sometimes nothing visible at all. But I would of been there for you, like always. Helping & mending, kissing your boo-boos, because it was my job.

I read stories of death, almost-death & survival. I think about Joe & Carole and the girls. I admire their strength. I pray for them. For all of us. That no more victims fall to this illness. For a cure...

 

I would of traded places with you if I could.
 

 

 

The hardest thing to accept is that we can't turn back time. The only change we can make is in the future. Spread awareness of the illness & for a cure. So another mom won't cry herself to sleep wondering why she never knew...

 

Sending you a million kisses, my beautiful girl. I love you to the moon & back,

Forever your mommy <3