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Dear beautiful girl,

I've been struggling this past week. I don't want you to worry please. If you've been watching...I'm trying very hard to be strong for you girls. I don't want you to be sad either. I had a vision of you in my dreams, sitting on the steps, looking away from me with such a sad expression. It broke my heart...

I'm trying so hard.

I love you.

I miss you.

So much it hurts.

That is my struggle.

Not eons...7 weeks. But feels like 70..

Don't lose faith in me, ok?

Please...

Forever your mommy.

You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.”
― Anne Lamott