3 months

3 months since you last closed your eyes forever
since I last had your hands in mine
feeling your touch, kissing each finger one by one.

tracing the outline of your face,
memorizing the shape of your nose, lips & eyes,
with those long curled up eyelashes...

how badly did I want them to wake.
to look up at me,
just one more time.

just one more smile,
one more hug,
one more I love you,
all the way up to the sky.

it's been 3 months,
since your last breath.
since I whispered in your ear.
rest in peace my beautiful angel.

not believing,
not understanding,
not accepting.
asking why, why, why?

3 months I survived without you,
not thinking I ever would.
missing & loving you,
like only a mother could.

3 months too long,
but only 3 months,
of the rest of my life,
without you.

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Halloween 2013, first & only time I let you wear mascara &
it was certain you inherited my mom's eyelashes. <3

I love you.