September

My beautiful girl,

Today is the first day of September. Not officially the end of summer yet, but soon. It feels strange to have your sisters back in school before Labor Day with the weather still in the mid 90's. It's the first year the county is doing this...let's see how it goes. Summer was always your favorite season. What other season would a mermaid prefer?

Yesterday was a tough day for me, but made a little easier with the help of Grandma & Jaylen. Uncle Chris picked Sydney & Camryn up Saturday because Syd had a concert to go to (5 sauce). So Jaylen stayed behind to help with their first day & so Grandma wouldn't have to drive back home alone. Jaylen woke up early, did their hair & even walked with them to their bus stop.

Unfortunately, Aunt Didi is not crazy about having her girls' pictures posted...so I couldn't include Jaylen in these. But I still have to give her credit for being their stylist. :)

After your sisters left, just the two of us sat on the couch watching Belle, while Grandma cleaned & packed up. Then they left...

I've always said God gave me Grandma as a gift, like a second mom. She's always been there and has unconditional love for all of us. She cooked, cleaned, took Daddy to work, helped with grocery shopping, took your sisters to get their nails & hair cut for back to school...and wouldn't go until I told her it was ok to. We are lucky to have her. We are lucky to have all of them.

I hope Jaylen doesn't mind me sharing this from her Instagram. She tagged me this yesterday and it made me cry, but they were happy tears...

At the school garden.

So sweet and amazing, like her. <3 

We love and miss you baby. Always thinking of you. I got some texts and messages from your friends' moms, thinking of you for back to school. It always means a lot when they remember. It just goes to show you how special you are & how much of an impact you made in all our lives.

I meant to show you these last week. This flower was left by Kimi & Katelyn, on a day when we planned for the pool but it ended up raining...

It was very thoughtful of them. The orchid is so pretty & it reminds me of you. That plant arrangement with the white ceramic angel planter is a gift we got in the mail from one of Daddy's banks from work a while ago. He even talks about you with them.








Then, Auntie Zulen posted this on your angel web page last week. A bonsai tree they dedicated to you.

I love it.



10 years, 11 months, 15 days you lived on this Earth and gave us joy. A gift so priceless, so precious that it broke us to have to give you back. It wasn't our choice. But we will always look back on the memories of you with joy. A joy so rich & pure, that it will fill our hearts again & again.

I love you my beautiful girl.

Throughout all the days, weeks, months & seasons...

Always & forever,

Your mommy <3