Sketches

My mouse,

We were cleaning out the car one day & I found one of your notebooks in the back pocket of my seat. I skimmed through it and found some of your sketches. Like everything I find of yours, it becomes a treasure.



Too cute.

You traced the pattern of a napkin (left) to the page (right),
 using black permanent marker. Tracing dot by dot...

You would always draw when you were bored. In the car, at home or in school. Always so patient, taking your time with patterns, practicing anything new you just learned over & over until you had it down...

I used to have that patience too. Poor Auntie shared a room with me when I was a teen & knows from first-hand experience that instead of sleeping at night, I'd have the lights turned on listening to music either writing, drawing or even painting sometimes. I'd go to the craft store for Christmas and paint decorations & create gifts for all my friends. They'd have their own personal jewelry boxes, candle holders, you name it. I'd literally spend hours upon hours on a project & loved every minute. :)

Watching you drawing, making those rainbow loom bracelets with those intricate patterns, or even when you'd practice those different kind of cool braids on your sisters hair, would remind me of me...When I was younger. :)

Of course, life gets in the way as you get older. I still enjoy those things, just don't have time. If I could, I would quit my job and just write to you all day, my precious girl.

But I've been thankful for the time I do have. I've been lucky that through the bereavement leave & now sick leave, recovering from surgery, that I've at least been able to write. To you.

I love you my beautiful girl.

Everyday of my life I will love you and then more...

I always look for your patterns in the skies.

The other day we were driving back home & we saw this:

It looked like someone took a paintbrush & got to work. So beautiful. I wouldn't be surprised if it was you. :) And if you look at it in different angles, you can almost make out a figure with wings...

Natalia said that one day, while we were talking about purple skies & rainbows. She said she thinks you have a magic wand up there, that you use whenever you want, to create all the pretty colors of the sunsets & rainbows.

I hope you do my little artist. I hope you do.

We'll always be checking, just in case.

See you in my dreams,

Forever your mommy. <3