Another lifetime

My dear sweet Hailey,

Sometimes I feel I have lived several different lifetimes, and a thousand years have passed in between. Like I've lived in different worlds, in different times & been several different people.

Sometimes I look back & remember & find it hard to believe all these lives combined, have been all mine, rolled up into one. Yet, it is true. And here I still am, despite it all...


My mouse, this life that I'm living now. The one without you. The one that started the day I lost you....doesn't compare to anything I've have had to endure, ever.

In this lifetime, I am broken into a million pieces.

Each day, I try to find & sort each piece, one by one & glue myself back together.

In hopes that one day I can be somewhat whole again...despite the hole in my heart that I know will never mend.

In hopes that all this pain I feel, will transform to love & it will spill freely. Abundantly.

And that it will be enough to sustain me, so that I can continue to live...

Until I see you again, in another lifetime.

My sweet girl.

I love & miss you with all my heart. I will never forget you.

Forever,
Your Mommy <3