February

My sweet baby girl,

Some days I can't stop the tears that spill down my face. I can't stop the pain as it takes over every living cell in my body. I miss you so much I can't stand it. I want to scream until
I have no voice. I want to cry until until I go dry. I want to throw stuff and break things and shake God violently until he answers me why....

Why?

I miss you so much, I just want to wake up from this nightmare. I want it to not be true...

I want you back and have everything be normal again. I want it to stop hurting so..

My beautiful sweet Haileymouse. How could it be that you were taken from me??

I wish we could be together again. I wish I had you in my arms and never let you go.

Tell me or show me the way, for I am lost. I'm lost without you.

My sweet girl, I'm sorry.

I just love you so much it hurts. It hurts to breath. It hurts to live without you.

Another day, another week, another month. Without you.

I'm sorry.

I try, I try to be strong. But sometimes I just can't.