We are back home, back to reality. We arrived late last night after driving a total of almost 13 hrs (both ways) & little sleep (in two days). Back to school & work today. But it was worth it...it was so worth it.
It's hard to put into words sometimes, the feelings one feels. Because words alone don't seem sufficient or appropriate enough. I hope you can see & tell in these pictures the amount of love & joy felt between me, your sisters, Debbie & Reegan's family the first night we met & the day after.
Complete strangers, that were brought together by the passing of 2 innocent little girls. The almost-passing of another boy. Moms, Dad, Grandpa, sisters, brother & cousin:
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| After dinner our first night. |
Yet, it felt like we knew them for years. There was a definite connection. They get it, my angel. Without words, they know & they get it. There were hugs, tears & laughs both days. We talked about you & Reegan. We told them how much you loved kids & babies. How we know you're up there with her hand in hand, or baby to hip ;) Bella was given the nickname Izzy & Kayla was Boo. :) They were so down to earth & welcoming. It's true what they say about southern hospitality...
The next day was even grander. Your sisters & I got to experience something we never have. First, a church service in the South! Wow! With live uplifting music & singing; dancing; passionate preacher; the whole works my mouse. I know you were there. I know you could feel my heart balloon to the size of a watermelon. Both your sisters agreed that our church is so boring compared to theirs. :)
The words the preacher spoke; about not staying idle, about doing something good not just for the sole purpose of personal gain- it was all about what Reegan's mom did. Not only to have Reegan's memory live on forever, but to save lives. To make sure no one else has to walk in her shoes. In our shoes...
It was just amazing baby girl. I took in as much as I could. There were a lot of big shots there too. The ones that helped her make Reegan's Rule happen: Senator Smith & Representative Graham, Tom Karlya (Diabetes Dad), all who I had a pleasure of meeting. All who found about us, about you.
The luncheon celebration after the service was amazing too. Reegan was everywhere. We were all wearing her colors: Hot pink & black.
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| Decorations |
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| Church, me & the big shots, your sissies & Reegan's brother & the luncheon :) |
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| We were seated with the big shots too, where I got to introduce myself & the girls & tell them your story. They were genuinely sorry & touched. Your memory will live on as long as I do. <3 |
I was so inspired by Darice- Reegan's Mom. In her speech, she said if it wasn't for her faith, she'd be "on the street corner somewhere strung out on God knows what". She said everything was God's doing, not hers. That she was just picked by the Lord, as his messenger. That all she did, was make that first phone call...& he took care of the rest.
It made me think, baby girl. It brought me back to my original thought when all this came to be- that God brought us together, because we are on the same journey.
I really have no doubt that that's true now. She made me really believe it. She made me believe it's possible....that anything is possible.
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Except the fact that we will always live with a hole in our hearts & nothing will change that.
We both agreed that we would trade anything to have you back in our lives.
We have realized by now that we will never completely heal.
But we have no doubts that one day we will see you again.
That we walk this path of faith, holding our broken hearts in place, for as long as it takes, because we know, that it will one day lead us back to you. Our babies.
And we will not stay idle. We will keep you alive with the love we have for you...always.
There is no love stronger than that, my mouse.
I love & miss you.
Forever,
Your mommy <3
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