Dear Hailey,
I woke up this morning to this memory of you girls, wishing my mom a happy birthday.
https://youtu.be/o7gcwlQK3Ck
https://youtu.be/GsXQFbo0QUA
It brought many tears, baby girl. I am tired from all the crying & thinking over watching this video & everything that it means & represents. I wish I had energy to write about it, but I have just enough strength left to say this:
You looked so healthy here but you were probably already sick, yet we didn't know. I'm sorry we didn't know. I'm sorry, because if we had any idea we would of taken you to the doctor sooner. We would of never gone on the trip. I'm so sorry baby girl. We are paying the price for it now...
I love you my sweet Hailey.....
I believe siblings share one soul. When you posted this, the grief, the heartbreak, it all came flooding back. I knew that this was hard to watch. I knew that all those questions would come back. I knew the guilt would strike. As I look at it now, I look at the girls and they all have this sweetness about them. Her spirit reflects like the sun on the ocean, right off my beautiful nieces. They are a part of you, and you are a part of them. There is no denying it, even through heartbreak. There is no denying that God's work is still unfolding, There is no denying that lives have been saved and awareness has been brought to light. There is good. There is good because there is good in you and your girls. 💜💜💜
ReplyDeleteWe do share the same soul, it was so hard babe. It didn't mean to upset anyone, part of me didn't want to post it. But I wanted to show how deceiving this disease can be as a warning to others too. Plus it did show how sweet my girls are, all 3. Thank you for always saying the right thing 💜
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