Testimony

My little girl,

I've been meaning to share these with you. It's important to remember the good things too. These are a couple of messages I received from friends in the last couple of weeks- through Facebook.

Good news is he tested negative.

Amazing. I pray for my friend and her daughter.

You see baby girl? It is true that something good can come from something so tragic. When I first read these, I was in tears with emotion.

I can remember those first few months after we got back from Bolivia & I was on the internet researching Type One Diabetes. I have to admit, it was torture for me. In between bouts of breakdowns I kept reading about this monster of a disease that took you from us. The more I found out, the worse it got- my heart would continue to break into a million little pieces.

The hardest part to accept, was that your death could of been prevented. This fact alone was enough to end me.

Daddy & others would ask: Why are you doing this to yourself? Do you really think this will help you heal? Maybe you shouldn't read "that stuff".

That stuff? You mean the stuff that took my babies life? You mean the stuff that changed our lives forever? You mean the stuff that continues to kill other innocent children & adults??

My response to everyone was the same: You don't understand. This disease took my baby. One day she was here & then she was gone, with no explanation. I'm her mother. I have to know, I have to find out how this happened.

And so it began my beautiful girl. I soon came across Kycie's & Reegan's story & now so many others since then. As if one life wasn't enough. It's more than tragic. It's horrific & it has to be stopped.

Through the heartbreak I also found refuge in a whole world of warriors I didn't even know existed. The families of those who lost loved ones to this disease & those who are currently fighting it. There's a momentum going on right now my mouse & we are a part of it.

I've said all along, that if we can at least help save one life, it would be enough. This is testimony that we have, my little girl. THIS helps me heal. THIS fulfills me more than words can say. Because it is a testimony to YOU.

It was worth the staying up nights searching & researching. It was worth sharing your our story & reliving the gut wrenching details that left me crippled for days. It lead me to this other world of warriors. I know you & God had your hand in it too.

And I'm so glad for it, because I don't know what else I could of done, with no outlet to place all the anger & pain. I'd be sitting here all alone, or not be here at all....but maybe God already knew this.

Instead we get to turn it into something good, my angel.

Auntie was right in saying that we are now your voice & represent your spirit. I promised you that I would try knowing I have you; God, family & friends by our side.

The good always win, right my baby girl? And there was always so much good in you...

We love & miss you, every single minute of every day.

Forever & ever,

Your mommy

Between the two articles we reached over
10K people just online baby girl. I always knew you
were an angel, now everyone else knows it too.
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