You

My sweet girl,

Sometimes I miss you so much I can't breathe.

I search for you, I talk to you, I can feel you...

But it doesn't stop me from missing you.

The you that would cuddle next to me. The you that would give me those big bear hugs. The you that would laugh at my corny jokes & make us laugh in return. My silly sassy mouse. My sweet Haileymouse.

I miss asking how your day was & listening to every single detail of it. I miss those beautiful brown eyes with those long eyelashes. I miss you walking around the house holding your pillow sheet. I miss the trail of clothes you'd leave laying around...

I just miss you. So much it hurts.

So much that I find myself in your room sometimes, just to be near you again. Smelling your purple Northface sweatshirt...still smelling of your sweet perfume. Holding & kissing your babies. Running my fingers over the drawings on your wall, retracing your touch.

Sitting on your bed, remembering how I'd walk in to say good morning & find you on your side, with a little bit of dried up drool on the side of your mouth. How it would make me smile each time. How I'd kiss you on your cheek or forehead to wake you up.

I miss your voice. Even though I can still hear it in my head, I still call your number sometimes just to hear your voicemail.

There will never be anyone else like you my sweet girl. You were something special. You still are.

I will carry you around in my heart for as long as it's beating. We all will, that I can promise.


                                         I miss those sleepy eyes- esos ojitos tristes. <3



A version of build a bear you got for one of your bdays- this is after I
helped you stich it together. You were so happy & proud.

I search for you in the skies & sometimes think I see you.
Like this one, I can clearly see a face with long hair
laying on it's side.

In this one I saw an angel with long hair & its
wings spread out.

I miss the you that I could kiss and hug
I miss the you that I could hold and touch
I miss the you that would brighten up my world

I miss you
I miss you

One day I know I will see you again
But that day seems far away
How do I go on until then?

I'm sending a little note to heaven
To tell you how much your missed
A little note to heaven
Sealed with a kiss

Goodnight my angel,

I love you.

I miss you.

Forever,
Your mommy