Miracles from Heaven

My beautiful girl,

Yesterday your sisters & I rented & watched "Miracles From Heaven". It was recommended by some of the moms of a new online support I joined, thanks to Heather (Aiden's mom). When I posted your picture & told our story, we got over 100 'likes' & many comments all saying how beautiful you are & how sorry they are...it was touching & it made feel welcome.

But the movie made us ball like babies. :( We expected it to be sad, but didn't expect it to feel so real, for it to bring us back to the beginning...

And left us wondering- Why? Why didn't we get our miracle? How come our baby wasn't saved?

There were some similarities too: 3 sisters, middle child, a 10 year girl named Hailey passing away, butterfly from Heaven....

I don't know baby. The movie & the people in it didn't know either.

No one knows. No one knows why things happen the way they do. But we must still keep our faith & continue to love.

We're trying baby girl. I know you were with us last night as your sisters & I sat there crying & hugging each other. We promised to still have faith & love. We told you how much we missed & loved you.

It still wasn't easy watching somebody else's happy ending when ours wasn't. I couldn't understand the moms who recommended the movie not feeling the same way either. Maybe I should ask them...

There was a scene in the movie when the little girl visits a place like Heaven for a little bit. It was beautiful & magical, full of colors & light. She remembered not feeling any pain anymore. She remembered just being happy & not wanting to come back to Earth.

I hope & pray that is the same for you my sweet angel, that you live in a place like this.

And that one day, "We'll get there." Like the movie said: "One day, we'll get there when we get there."

I love you my sweet Haileymouse.
I miss you everyday.

Sweet dreams,
Forever, your mommy

I told your sisters I've often wondered how different it
Would of been if we'd of had a chance to say goodbye.
But then I don't think I could of bared it, I don't think
I could ever say goodbye. Not ever. Because it's not goodbye remember?
It's see you later my beautiful girl. I can't wait.