Superheroes

My sweet Haileymouse,

Today was one of the hottest days of this summer so far & it's not even August yet. We're finally home relaxing in the AC after running errands & taking Rocky to the dog park. He doesn't like to walk much in this heat, plus its not really good for him, so we take him late in the evenings or early mornings to get some energy out....

I've seen more Haileyflies in the last couple of days than most of the summer. Last night, when saying bye to Papi, he walked us to our car & there was an orange/brownish one flying around us & landed right on the window of his Tahoe. It stayed there long enough for us to notice & smile & was still there as we drove off.

Not even an hour later we got a text from Daniella saying that his sugar was high & that they took it because he "was feeling weird". I'm worried about him baby girl. He hasn't been taking care of himself like he should after he was diagnosed with Type 2. On top of that he has hypertension & some vision issues due to both. :(

When I was younger, I thought my dad of a superhero; invincible. Now I see he's just a man & that all those years of being a superhero, are starting to catch up to him. :( We've seen & experienced first-hand how fragile life is. How one day everything is fine & beautiful & the next day it can be ripped apart...the thought is still fresh in my mind. So I can't help but worry & get sad. The thought of something happening to him...I just can't even think about it. Even superheroes need to rest...

We're going to try & help him. Maybe go back to the doctors with him or make up some easy recipe ideas- print out lists of foods that he can or can't eat, things like that. I'm also going to pray. Pray that God gives him strength. <3

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Things are never easy my sweet girl. This life is not for the weak & weary. My dad has always taught us how to be strong & positive. Even when things were bad (which was almost always), we still found a way to fight on, to laugh, to enjoy & be thankful for what we did have.

I'm thankful for that, specially now. I don't think I would of made it this far in life, specially after losing you.....

I love & miss you so much. Yesterday we visited you at the gardens & there was a bouquet of white flowers laying on your plaque. Not sure who, but someone visited you & laid them there. I thought it was really sweet & it made me smile. :)

We cleaned them off & placed them in your vase. We also hung the guardian angel we bought you at the beach. <3

I also wanted to tell you that I got the form back from work & it got 'okayed' to be discussed at their big quarterly meeting! I'm really hopeful because it was okayed by the head of all the nurses, who also came to your memorial service & gave me a rosary made of purple crystals & for your one year angelversary, gave me a sterling silver necklace with a charm that read "You are my sunshine."

She follows your page on FB and is friends with me too. She knows how important this issue is- testing for Type 1 diabetes, not only for me but just in general. I really hope, I pray that something good comes out of this baby girl. Possibly something HUGE! At the very least it will be talked about. That is a step. And that makes me happy....

I know you are watching from above...& when you able, next to us.
But you are always in our hearts.
Every single moment of every single day.
Forever & ever,
Until we see you again.<3

Love,
Mommy

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