Dream

Baby girl,

I had dream about you last night that left me sad all day. I'm too tired to write about it tonight. But I just wanted you to know how much I miss you. My heart hurts. I know where the term "my heart is heavy" comes from because that is how I felt all day. Like my heart was being crushed with the weight of the pain I feel.

I'm sorry. It's just that in my dream you came back. Then to wake up and realize it's not real...that I'll never be able to hold you or hug you again...it's too much sometimes. It's a nightmare that never ends.  :(

But in my dream I did hug you. You didn't give me back one of your big bear hugs though. That's one of the things that made me sad. But I felt you in my arms again. For now, that will have to do.

I love you with all my heart and soul.
Until I see you again, my beautiful angel.
Always & forever,
Your mommy <3