Today is the last day of July- also Auntie Zulen's bday. I hope she is enjoying her day. Please visit her if you can.
It's hard to believe that in less than a month, your sisters will be going back to school. It's on my mind because we've already done some back to school shopping, in small bits.
I remember the agonizing pain I felt last year of going back to school shopping; another reminder. Maybe because we've been doing it in small portions this time, it doesn't feel as intense...but I still do remember my angel. My heart still sinks & aches.
After doing some shopping yesterday, we went to see you at the gardens & smiled thinking about how many shoes you would of made me buy you; one to match every outfit. <3
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Your sisters keep growing & maturing & I'm trying to keep up. New fads & tastes. I give my opinion but try not to judge...
I can't change their minds any more than I could when you all were little, my mouse. Passed your toddler years, each of you were strong minded & stubborn. You knew what you liked & what you didn't & weren't shy about voicing it out loud.
"It's too itchy. Too big, too tight, I like this, I like that"...it makes me smile remembering baby girl. I created little monsters at an early age. ;)
Nothing's changed, except that I have one less to shop for now & it hurts...
I miss you more than words can say. If you were to come back to me...I would buy you every shoe in every store. Anything & everything you want....
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Oh my sweet girl.
We must go on. No other choice.
As I promised, we're going to try & enjoy the rest of the summer. We have our mini vacation to look forward to then Grandmom & Pop Pop's 50th wedding anniversary celebration; that's the big one.
Grandmom is really looking forward to it & we are all helping in what we can to make it extra special for her & Pops too. The pictures that Horacio took of them when they came down to visit in April turned out great & I had them blown up & framed & also made them into thank you cards for the all the guests. A guest book so everyone can sign in & write something nice about them...
I hope it turns out great, they deserve it. When Daddy & I decided to get married, it was just going to be through the courts, nothing fancy. But then Grandmom told me her only regret when she got married is that she never had a real wedding. No white dress, no ceremony...she said I'd regret it too. So her & Aunt Didi helped us & I'm so glad we did.
I want something similar for her..even 50 years later. That's always Grandmom & Pop Pops my mouse- all they want is to bring their family & friends together for a good time. Grandmom also said she wants to dance with her three sons...so we have to make it happen.
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We've also been looking through old pictures for the slide show Sydney & Jaylen are making. From babies until recently...so many memories it was hard to choose baby girl.
We have to be thankful for all those memories. For our family; all the hugs & smiles. For Grandmom & Pops & everything they've done & what they mean to us...
I know it's going to be great. We're all excited about it. It's given us something to be happy about.
Just wish you were here...
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Always & forever,
Your mommy
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