Fall days

My sweet girl,

I think Fall has finally come. I just hope it stays for a while before it gets too too cold. The trees have been slow to turn colors this year for some reason. Really warm days- summer extended.

I can remember all our trips to go see Uncle Mikey & family, in the beginning of October. Loving the scenic view on the way, with all the beautiful fall colored trees. We're now at the end of Oct & they're just finally turning, the cool weather returning.
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Your sisters have been really busy with homework, projects, studying for tests...since they're both taking advanced classes, they both have been bombarded. As soon as they get home from school, they eat, walk Rocky & start working on schoolwork until they go to bed, every single day. I'm proud of them, but I know it gets tiring for them. It's been non-stop.

I just tell them that I'm proud & remind them that it will all pay off someday.

It's not all work & no play though. Sissy went out with her friends for homecoming last week. Bella went to a dance a few weeks ago & has had spirit week this week. She's made new friends & sees your friends too my mouse. She said Abby, Kimi & Carly always say hi & have hugged her too. <3

I'm so happy & relieved. There are times she gets sad, she says. Thinking of how different school would be if you were there. We've talked about it a few times. But overall, she likes going. She's so strong. <3

As for Sissy, she's been driving to work & school by herself for weeks now. I'm still getting used to it, baby girl. It's still so strange for me.

They're both growing up. She goes to the store & runs errands. I still get nervous, specially when she takes your sister. But she's a good driver & very responsible. It's not that I don't trust her. But there will always be that fear...
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As for Daddy & I- we keep busy with work. Daddy's still working on getting his license back & fixing his teeth. His dental procedures have been going on for over a year now, but it's finally coming to an end next week. The license thing, is more complicated, but we are getting closer to that too.

We're all still proud of him baby girl. I'm proud of all of us. Despite everything that has happened...we are still standing. Walking, walking forward. But never leaving you behind. You still remain part of us, part of our little family.

We have been busy working on your kindness rocks too, leaving them in random places & they've all been found. <3

They're actually very fun & therapeutic. Bella & I work on them daily & look forward to it. We're going to keep going until supplies run out. :)
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Staying positive. Moving forward. That is what we're trying to do baby girl.

Next week is Halloween. We've decorated already & bought candy. Sissy has to work but Bella is still planning on dressing up. I'm glad she's still excited about it. I remember how it was one of your favorite holidays- all you girls.

But it feels different now my angel. Sissy working....Bella excited, but not as excited as in the past. Another holiday without you...

Even while trying to stay positive, all these things make a difference. I know things aren't meant to last forever.....I guess I thought they'd at least last a little longer.
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I'm going to try & savor these Fall Days as best I can, I promise my angel. I've been seeing so many Haileyflies during the walks with Rocky. They make me smile.

Even though the holidays are right around the corner, I can't bring myself to think about them yet or about making any plans. Right now the only thing I'm looking forward to is meeting your cousin Julian & seeing Mikey, Zuli & Joshua at the end of the year.

Still one day at a time my angel.

We miss & love you so much.

Each & every second of every day.

Forever,
Your mommy

 

Sissy's homecoming night.

The sky the other night. Always think of you.

Hiding rocks, like Easter Eggs. :)

<3