Kindness Rocks

Dear Hailey,

My sweet & beautiful girl.

I've been seeing so many Haileyflies lately & today I saw a big beautiful orange monarch that  fluttered by as I was looking for a hiding spot for one of your kindness rocks.

I was walking Rocky & passed by the bench by the little lake, pondering whether to leave it there on top of the bench...& it appeared. It's as if you were saying hi & "yes mommy, that's a good spot". <3

Here are some of the kindness rocks we painted over the weekend:

The girls helped paint & decorate them.

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I wanted to do something special this month & next- for diabetes awareness month. I saw this idea on Abby's page (the little girl your age that was run over by a car :(. I thought it was such a cute idea.

When I researched it, this is what I found:

http://thekindnessrocksproject.com/how-it-all-began

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The girls pitched in to help.

I wanted to do something special because I want to keep your memory alive my angel- forever & ever.

It's hard to explain the mix of emotions that these kind of "projects" bring my angel; as much pain as joy. One minute we're having a great time painting them & being creative, excited even to hide them for others to find.

The next I feel like I could easily have an anxiety attack over the emotions that overcome me- this wave of grief comes out of nowhere. I can't tell if it's the pain or love I feel...I just have to stop & breathe.
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Oh my mouse.

After hiding the rocks, we stopped by to drop off the pumpkins at the gardens. Valeria placed a coin Tio gave her under one of the pumpkins. She said, "I think Hailey will want this coin." :) It was so sweet. Then she asked, "How will Hailey know I gave it to her?" I told her you can see everything because you are an angel in the sky. That you can see everything from Heaven.

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I hope you can baby girl.

I know you can. I hope you can see how much we're trying. How much love you. How much you're missed.

Each & everyday.

Forever & ever,
Your mommy