Foos Pt 2

Baby girl,

This week is flying by.

I work tomorrow & took Friday off because I already knew I'd need it off; to either cry, be silent or spend it in your room, or work on a special project....

I don't know. I won't know until the day of. All I know is, it will be 2 1/2 years since you've been gone & it won't be a "regular day" for me.

That is the world that we live in now. Trying to live for today, one day at a time. One day things can be ok, even great & the next my heart is breaking all over again missing you.

Maybe I will go to church.
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I wanted to share the pics from this past weekend, which already feels like it was ages ago. I want to share all the good times as well as the bad...

But more of the good.

Daddy's first FF show. He actually got a Saturday off.

Waiting on an Uber to go to the show.

Sissy back stage with Dave Grohl!

Taylor & Chris.

We talked about how you probably would of stayed at Papi's with Bella, rather than go to the show with us. You both were never huge fans of rock music. You preferred pop/dance music like One Direction, Katie Perry or Taylor Swift...

We smiled thinking of how you would of probably turned your nose up to the grungy scene of the rock shows; the rowdy & grungy crowds, the noise & the people...

We all agreed- "No, Mouse wouldn't like it. She would of rather stayed with Papi & the kids." :)

But you did like live shows I remember baby girl. Like when we went to see Selena Gomez & Kelly Clarkson; you danced & sang & had a good time.

I know you probably wouldn't of gone with us to see the Foos, but I missed you anyway. I missed Bella too.
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Sissy on the other hand, had a blast. She was so in shock when she met them, & nervous too. She wasn't screaming when she met them on the outside, but in the inside she was screaming & jumping up & down. You know Sissy, :)

That's why Uncle Bri probably agreed to take her, because had it been the other way around, he might of hesitated. Her maturity scored her a free pass, & the fact that she's really a big fan too. ;)
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Oh baby girl...

We continue to count our blessings.

To try to be good people & live good lives. In your honor. Always. <3

I love & miss you,
Forever your mommy
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"In Your Honor" Foo Fighters

Can you hear me
Hear me screamin'
Breaking in the muted skies
This thunder heart
Like bombs beating
Echoing a thousand miles

Mine is yours and yours is mine
There is no divide
In your honor
I would die tonight

Mine is yours and yours is mine
I will sacrifice
In your honor
I would die tonight
For you to feel alive

Can you feel me
Feel me breathing
One last breathe before I close my eyes
This suffering
For receiving
Deliver me into the other side

For you to feel alive
For you to feel alive
For you to feel alive
AHH