Even though we didn’t get our reading Sunday, I’m not devastatingly disappointed. A little, yes of course. I have to admit. But I have to believe that if there was anyway you could have connected with the medium that night, you would have.
We did witness many readings, many ‘connections’ though throughout the night & it was nothing short of amazing. Who would of thought or even believed it unless you saw & heard it with your own eyes...
Alina & I wondered why we weren’t lucky enough to have heard from you...:( but we weren’t the only ones. One of the reasons may have been that there were too many people. It wouldn’t of been possible for everyone in the room to get a reading unless we were there there all night. Out of maybe 200 people...only about 15 were lucky enough.
There were mostly dads & husbands that came through. Monica the medium said possibly because it was nearing Father’s Day.
But she was on point with everyone baby girl. As Auntie Alina said, she was “the real deal.” Such specific details, down to numbers & names. It really was amazing. Information she couldn’t of possibly guessed. So many heartbreaking stories, so many tears about the room.
It definitely made me realize we are not alone in our grief. :(
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There are many things I took home with me that night my angel. Monica said we would. She said we weren’t all going to be able to connect, but often the messages are “piggybacked”; coming from more than just one spirit; meant for more than just one person.
I could tell you details of each reading but I’m sure you already know...
I just want to remember the messages from the ones that really touched me. The ones I want to keep locked in my heart & mind:
1. We all have a “soul contract” here on Earth, that’s written even before we’re born. In this contract, it’s already decided who our family & loved ones will be, our purpose in life & how long we’ll remain. When it’s our time, it’s our time & nothing can change that. So there’s no use in feeling guilty thinking about “if only I did this or I should of never done that...”
Nothing could of changed the outcome. One way or another, it was going to happen. :*(
The same thing the other medium last year said.
So there is no use in torturing myself with guilt or pointing the finger of whose to blame. It was your time. :(
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2. That our time here, no matter how long or how short is precious. The time we had with you, even though we may feel was not long enough, was precious. And we should remember those precious memories, hold them close & be thankful for them. Learn from them & use them for good; now for our own purpose here.
3. That’s it’s not my time yet. That although maybe sometimes I want to give up, I want to see you again so badly I can’t bear to wait, I have to remember; not yet. I have not completed my purpose yet. But after I do, I will definitely see you again. Then we’ll be together for all eternity. <3
4. We are the best versions of ourselves on the other side. That’s the definition of heaven. There is no hell. No matter what struggles or ailments we had here on Earth, all of that is gone. You are healthy & happy. So I shouldn’t worry if you’re ok or not, because you are. We even get to keep our own personality; whether funny or sarcastic...but always the best version.
5. You want us to be & see us happy. You want us to move forward & are cheering us on every step of the way. That we shouldn’t feel sad remembering the good times, that’s it’s ok to even recreate the good times & smile remembering.
6. You’re always there. You try & let us know, specially when we need it the most, by sending signs. The signs are different according to the person. Dreams are the hardest because it requires a lot of energy, & if we haven’t had a dream yet, don’t worry we will ( I’m so thankful for all of mine.) So we shouldn’t be sad about moments you’ve missed or future events that you’ll miss; because you really won’t...because you’ll always be there. <3
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These are the most important things I took from that night babygirl. So you might see why I wasn’t so heartbroken. These are special & meaningful. Even though we weren’t able to ‘connect’, in my heart we are always connected. I felt as though it was all meant for us to hear. Like she said, there was a reason we were there that night.
I thought about all the stories & the messages ever since. I felt an ease in my heart after I was able to process them all.
Like a small blanket of peace was placed over my burning heart... the flames now slower, dimmer. Still some reminants of smoke & ash, but still beating just the same.
With a new sliver of hope shining through the breaking of the clouds...
I see now. My purpose.
My main one; to be a mommy. Amoung others...& I’m not done yet. But when I am, I will see you again & I cannot wait. <3
Forever all eternity,
Your mommy
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| But my heart will always miss you. |
<3
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