My beautiful girl,

Thinking of you and feeling this awful pain in my heart. Today was a good day, I shouldn’t even feel this way...but that’s not how it works is it my angel.

I love you my little girl.

You must of been smiling & giggling as you heard us with Dylan today. He had his first sleepover with Bella last night, it made my heart happy to see him & watch them two like brother & sister. He loves & remembers you so much my mouse. Just like Valeria. It warms my heart. He said things like “Hailey was always very nice to me.” And “I wish we could ask her what Heaven is like.”

We talked about our memories together & it made me realize again how everyone grieves for you babygirl, we are not the only ones. It makes me extra sad though to see the kids suffer that way. It’s almost beautiful & cruel, because it’s awesome that they remember you...but cruel that they miss you in the same way that we miss you. It’s even harder to answer the questions we grown ups don’t know for ourselves.

He said, “I hope we see Hailey again.” That was the only real answer I could give him, saying yes, we will one day. <3
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Please look after your cousins if you can babygirl. Or ask God to...

Last night when he talked about monsters or seeing things behind the window I told him he didn’t have to worry because you’re an angel & you are protecting him in his sleep. I turned your purple lights on in your room & he said it helped him sleep, knowing you were close by protecting him. :)
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I hope we get more chances to hang out with them. In the end, that’s all we have & all who matter. Our family & friends.

Goodnight my angel.
Tomorrow is Monday, I work all day.
It takes everything I have to try & go about having a normal day & not a “grief day”. I need to keep busy.

I love you so much. My sweet girl.

Forever & ever,
Your mommy <3