Baby steps

My beautiful girl,

Yesterday we went to your school to see your exhibit on homelessness. Your teacher Mrs. L came to the service & told us how hard you worked on it, so we had to see it. You did a great job, as usual. It had your artsy touch, creative & colorful. I have to admit, you get that from me. ;) I remember you telling me all about it. You always got really into whatever project your were working on. I loved that passion in you. We are also planning to donate food to the shelters you recommended. I'm so proud of you.

I didn't get to take any pics because the cafeteria was packed, with your classmates & their parents. We didn't stay long either. Almost as soon as I walked in, a parent approached me directly asking me questions about you. I explained to her I was already very emotional, and not ready to talk about it. That I just came to see your exhibit, and maybe we can get together later to talk. She understood. She said her oldest has Type 1 Diabetes.

Then another mom came to give me a big hug. I started to recognize many of your classmates & their parents who attended your service. Suddenly I felt very overwhelmed, so we left. It's going to take time, baby girl. I feel like everything I do, I'm re-learning how to do for the very first time. One day at a time. One hour at a time. Baby steps...

I'm getting ready to go back to your school with your sister for "Muffins with Mom", in honor of Mother's Day. I wish you were here. I'll be thinking of you.

Love you forever,

Forever your Mommy